ouch.
so, the divorce...
went well. i mean, the showing up to court part went well enough. the judge was super nice, which i really appreciated. she made me read a statement swearing that i don't have any kids and was requesting a divorce because things were not working out, then she signed the papers and i was done. i was pretty close to ecstatic (and relieved) for the first half of the day. then alvin called just to make sure that everything was taken care of. that was when i started crying, the first time. it's been so much more difficult than i anticipated. i thought i'd be kinda mopey for a couple of days and then bounce back, but it's more like every time i'm alone i break down crying and can't stop. it usually starts when i'm in the car, i guess because i'm alone. crying and driving are a little bit hazardous. i need my therapist.
i know that i'll be okay at some point in the future--right now, not really. i don't regret it, but i completely underestimated how stressful and upsetting it would be to have everything finalized. of course, how could i have known? i was fine up until now. ugh.
went well. i mean, the showing up to court part went well enough. the judge was super nice, which i really appreciated. she made me read a statement swearing that i don't have any kids and was requesting a divorce because things were not working out, then she signed the papers and i was done. i was pretty close to ecstatic (and relieved) for the first half of the day. then alvin called just to make sure that everything was taken care of. that was when i started crying, the first time. it's been so much more difficult than i anticipated. i thought i'd be kinda mopey for a couple of days and then bounce back, but it's more like every time i'm alone i break down crying and can't stop. it usually starts when i'm in the car, i guess because i'm alone. crying and driving are a little bit hazardous. i need my therapist.
i know that i'll be okay at some point in the future--right now, not really. i don't regret it, but i completely underestimated how stressful and upsetting it would be to have everything finalized. of course, how could i have known? i was fine up until now. ugh.
posted by sarah at 7:38 PM
5 Comments:
I don't think divorces are easy for anyone even when the relationship is rocky. Hang in there. You've got tons of friends who love you dearly and we're all here when you need us. Remember, you're not alone and crying is a good thing. It means you aren't holding everything in and pretending everything is peachy creamy and fine. *hugs*
That totally sucks. I can tell you from the, uh, absolutely no experience I have that time (probably) helps.
thank you all. :) i know time will make it better--it's already a little better, though i still feel pretty blah.
at least you have a good solid reason to feel bleh...sometime I feel bleh without a cause (granted, I hate my job, but plenty of people hate their jobs and they feel fine).
If only I could look as hot as susan in her user pic then life would be better. :)
yeah, we pretty much all wanna look like susan. :)
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